Its not that I want a baby right this minute, or even this year, but just having the option would be nice. Kind of like how awesome it was when the supermarket started opening 24/7, its not that you want cookies and cream icecream every night at 2am. but its comforting to know that if you need it, its there waiting for you, you just have to make the decision to reach out and grab it. Your in control of the decision. PCOS leaves you out of control. Your supermarket is only open when a myriad of other influences dictates it can be.
I guess because I'm yet to start any treatment, I still don't know what the plan of action is. I want to make plans, put things on the calendar, be organised. I'm hoping *fingers crossed* that this upcoming appointment will give me options and some kind of idea what to expect. Then I might be able to make a plan for the next 12 months or so. At the moment its all still so foreign. Writing all of this down, and reading other blogs has made it all seem that much more real, a little more in my face - which is probably what I needed, the quicker I start taking this all in, the sooner I can deal with it, whatever the outcome is.
Today's photo is taken at Tanner Point in the Bay of Plenty at a 6am sunrise....I'm hoping my personal sunrise will one day be this beautiful.